Regretfully Indifferent

i have never mentioned(mainly because i kept forgeting) but i love the aleph null blog so far, especially the explanation of our name...honestly it really made me proud to be a part of this...i'm really hoping for us to be able to add some stuff to it, and i would like to get back together with you guys regularly somehow...i truly miss it with all of my everything and want to find some way to bring us back together again as a band, and not just a name. i've had a few ideas to make us more like a band and less like a bunch of guys with instruments that make noise together, and also am realizing how little it matters whether we get serious, or keep just having fun because i truly miss the fellowship(sorry, mike's post about klyde and the aleph blog have me in one of those moods). I also want to make an attempt at puting every bit of truth that i can behind the description of our name. There's alot of power in that name, that song.

"Just how shallow is my love?
my heart?
my wounds?
my bleeding?"

I never thought our own song would bring me to tears.

just how shallow is my love...how shallow...how selfish...how could i?

finally my love, finally my love, finally my heart pours out these tears...these tears...my God...oh my God...my Jesus...oh God!

FORGIVE ME
JESUS PLEASE FORGIVE ME
GOD I'M SO SORRY
SO SORRY
PLEASE...

i will make it all ok
(pointing to His wrists)my stars, (now His back)and my stripes. there is your freedom. take it!!!
TAKE IT!!!
WHY WON'T YOU TAKE IT?!

how can i take it? what have i done for you? how many times have i SPIT in your face and stomped on your freedom? how many timess have I carved your cross?

well i didn't really intend to type all of that, and you can feel free to forget you ever read it. to think...i got on here to tell mike i'd bring the movie by tomorrow. if you'll excuse me, i have something to do...